Bar Results

Today is the day I find out the results of the California Bar Exam. To say I am nervous would be like saying Tiger Woods cheated on his wife; the understatement of the year.

Will it be the end if I don't pass? No, half the test takers fail each time the test is administered. Will I be disappointed if I fail? Definitely. I have no desire to take that test again. It was mentally the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. I lose sleep at night thinking about it and I have been a little cranky lately pondering the results.

While I do not necessarily want to be a practicing attorney for all my adult life, I would like to be an attorney for at least a little while and make money in order to pay down my massive law school debt. How much? That's not for you to know.

If I do fail, I will pick myself up, dust myself off (after a few beers) and most likely try again. I will see it as a challenge and make sure I pass the next time I take the test. "Champions get up when they have nothing left and no one else can." I want to be champion.

In the meantime, I will need to find a job. Loans come due in two weeks. I am ready to move onto the next stage of my life, whatever that may be. I know for certainty that involves moving back out of my parents' house.

Until then I will continue to build friendships and relationships and continue to learn.. I ask everyone to pray for those of us who took the bar exam and are awaiting results. That God's will may be done in our lives and that we may always turn towards His kingdom.